I was reading a psychology book. About happiness and the future.
And the author (funny man) mentioned something that stuck with me:
(something to the effect of)
Our brains constantly try to project us into the future, but the fact is we are still grounded in the present. Basically we always imagine the future to feel about as we feel now.

And I look back on a few years ago. Depression, etc. When I lost hope.
And it hasn't happened.
(I haven't been really down in a long time. Although I haven't been up... I miss being "bipolar". I miss the ups and downs...)
I'm blessed. I have the most wonderful friends. Over the summer I will spend more time with them. And everything will be all right.

Things change
but so do you.
And friends will be there if you are.

It's true.

The future is bright, you guys.
Don't lose hope.

I'll never let you go,
if you promise not to fade away. :)

I want to go to Columbia.
I got an email from them that said, "Picture yourself at Columbia"
and I looked at their majors.
and there were so many that were amazing.
and there is prestige.

But...
I got 550 on my SAT math. Which is shit.
And their Fu Foundation for Applied Science? Middle 50% gets 740-800. Shit?
Nnnngh. Plus they need 2 subject tests.
Stress much?

But I want it so bad.
I blame this all on you, Jessica Marinaccio.

On the plus side... they ARE interested in me. At least, my PSAT score. Probably not so much the math, but they do email me. Maybe they like me?

Also, I totally just told off Lake Superior State University. They sent me an email that said, "YOUR INVITED to an open house" and I sent them a "for shame" email back.

(I feel closer to Mr. Satterthwaite than to my dad)
(I feel closer to Ms. Marsh to my mom)
(I don't want Kim and Kevin to leave)
(I'm probably not getting into UMich)
(I just don't know what I'll do)

I thought I got a 12/30, but it was 21/30, thank the lord.
Mr. Baird is pretty much my favorite math teacher ever. He explains everything so well, even if he goes fast (and he put up with me asking him to expain stuff for a while after class). And even if I have trouble applying a concept, I know exactly why it works and why I am doing it. And, everything on the quiz is something that was either in the homework and perhaps a previous quiz! And he tells us exactly what sort of problems will be on it! This is quite a novelty after Mr. Snider. I'm still bitter about that stupid pool table problem.

Operation Apassionata will most likely flop, because I am a wimp. But perhaps it is the thought that counts?

I think I have curry in my eye. And it hurts like OW.

And Kevin just assigned Meg and I like 4 files each. By Wednesday what the fuck.

I am very stressed right now, without even a good reason. -_-

On plus side, Meg and I won the JV DCD tournament (not as impressive as it sounds, but still, <3)

SO.

Because:

A. I am a junior now
AND
B. Autos sind OUT
AND
C. I can fly
AND
D. Ich bin keine Madchen;

Clearly....


ICH BIN EIN FLUTZEUT!!!!!!!

(However, Auto is still an acceptable answer on my quiz, which I am shamelessly pimping here incase you did not take it already {I am such a trendsetter, by the way. *preens*} Also, Mandee, you should post the link to yours here, cause I cannot get to it for some reason))

According to my grandfather's DNA test, I am probably descended from the Vikings.

So if I happen to pillage/plunder you sometime, just remember it's probably not my fault; it's just genetics.

Yaaaaaaaaarr I'm a Nordic pirate!

OMG OMG OMG

Got a call from Mary at the library. Which means INTERVIEWS FOR PAGES.

You guys, being a library page has been my part-time-high-school-job dream since I was in fifth grade or something.

OMG I hope I don't fail!

Pirates of the Caribbean= YAAAAAAAAY but less yay the the first.
Definitely saw at midnight, definitely dressed up.

Will hopefully be getting a Davy Jones key replica if I can find one that isn't hideously expensive with shipping.

Debate camp=amazing fun. Could go into detail, but it would be debate geekery. (3AC!)

(Sagal, Arthi, Megan, Meg, Nora, Sarah, Cheryl, Katie, Kiri, Haley, Margaret, Erik, J.J., me)

Although M went to the hospital... scared the shit out of me but I think she's better (not permanently, but... you know)

Cookie Momster tomorrow, Foggy Friday, mall (to find DMC merchandise) and Oklahoma on Saturday, J-world (laaame I know) Sunday.

Delirious fun, no?

See my eyes, I can hardly see.
See me stand, I can hardly walk.
I believe you can make me whole.
See my tongue, I can hardly talk.
See my skin, I'm a mass of blood.
See my legs, I can hardly stand.
I believe you can make me well.
See my purse, I'm a poor, poor man.
Will you touch, will you mend me Christ?
Won't you touch, will you heal me Christ?
Will you kiss, you can cure me Christ?
Won't you kiss, won't you pay me Christ?


Haha... I realized that on one of my quizzes I fully wrote a definition for "perpendicular" when I was supposed to be writing a definition for "paralell". And he didn't notice. And this was the same quiz in which Ali got marked down for an explanation that made perfect sence (Ali is just too smart).

Oh, the irony! (Sorry, Ali :[)